| schedule. |
[Jul. 19th, 2006|01:19 pm] |
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| |  bored | ] |
Some of you have yet to add my new LJ name ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) thebiggestlie_x so here's my school schedule if you haven't seen it yet :
First Semester:
1st hour - Algebra 2 w/ Mrs. Kowalski.
2nd hour - Theater Production w/ Mr. Sill.
3rd hour - Chem. Com w/ Mrs. Schrimscher.
4th hour - Spanish 3 w/ Mrs. Sinutko (YES)
5th hour - Myth, Tale, and Legend w/ Mrs. Mordenski.
6th hour - World Religions w/ Mrs Larkin.
7th hour - American History w/ Sister Marianne.
Second Sememster:
1st hour - Algebra 2 w/ Mrs. Kowalski.
2nd hour - Spanish 3 w/ Ms. LaBelle (maybe, i might drop out)
3rd hour - Chem. Com w/ Mrs. Schrimscher.
4th hour - Lit into Film w/ Mr. Baker (oh god)
5th hour - Free Hour
6th hour - Relationships w/ Mrs. Ewald (kill me now).
7th hour - American History w/ Sister Marianne.
My schedule is posted everywhere, well myspace and livejournal, but shh.
Let me know if we have any classes together. |
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| guess what? |
[Jan. 29th, 2006|08:01 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | the used. | ] |
i'm only doing this cuz i hate anonymous comments. such sweet ones do not deserve to be anonymous. |
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| i feel like shit. |
[Jan. 28th, 2006|05:28 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | wakefield. | ] |
i dunno what to do.
i'm so confused.
i feel so helpless :/
what did i just do?
i'm not like this anymore.
i stopped 2 years ago.
so why did i do it again?
i'm such an idiot. |
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| complete opposite of yesterday. |
[Jan. 27th, 2006|05:43 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | good charlotte. JEALOUS?! | ] |
whoever posted that anonymous comment should tell me who they are cuz i wanna know!!!
ANYWAYS, i had so much fun at school today. i absolutly love my friends with all my heart.
1st : slept in geometry.
2nd : did pilates in gym. lmao catie and i were struggling with it so much & we were cracking up at the video.
3rd : off with briana. went to the computer lab and blasted hilary duff. christina [stalker] and her friends walked in and started blasting foo fighters so briana and i started singing "beat of my heart" really loud lmfao. i ran out of the room and ran into the door. then we were dancing down the hallways singing "AWAY AWAY. AWAY AWAAAAAAAAAY". briana ran into her friend when she was singing so that was fun too.
4th : did my homework like a good girl O:]
5th : sat with gibby and tried to study. we were talking too much about last year and how renee, her, and i met thanks to my gay star dude :P lmao. i went up to get a laptop and lawrence davenport was like "this pumpkins asleep!" and im like "WTF!?"
6th : values. last time i'll see donna before she moves back to syria :[[[[[
7th : an hour of bio. wow i dont even know what to say to that.
emma was just downing this huge chocolate candy bar on the bus. i laughed. now i'm just waiting for my mom to get home so i can go shopping for dresses before its too late! our soph semi theme is masquerade and its kinda funny cuz i just remembered i put that in our little suggestion box with renee and now, i'm not too sure i like that idea. ah well.
& i'm excited for tomorrow :] |
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| bahh i'm such a whiney bitch. |
[Jan. 26th, 2006|04:21 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  crushed | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | bright eyes. | ] |
nothing is going right.
everything seems to be plummeting downhill.
why do i even bother looking at my photo album? the only thing that lingers in it is memories, and some that i dont even want to remember. i wish i never opened that damn thing again. so many good memories with my friends, but what happened to them all? half the friends i have dont even talk to me as much as they used to. zach and i are so distant, i hate it. we used to hang out everday and i havent even seen the kid in 3 months or more.
bahh.
just when i thought things couldnt get any worse, they do.
i think i fucked up everything :[ |
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| on a lighter note... |
[Jan. 24th, 2006|08:42 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  flirty | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | armor for sleep. | ] |
i found out some pretty interesting things today online. like how joe is a rapist and that naughty nick streaks through the streets of downtown wayne banging every mailbox in sight.
i'm so glad i know these kids.
jealous?
you are. i can see it in your eyes.
:O!!!
oh shnizzle! i forgot to finish the rest of my homework! |
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| sing me something soft. |
[Jan. 23rd, 2006|05:42 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  scared | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | straylight run. | ] |
haha before school briana and i went down to the lockers to do my homework cuz there were no desks in the library, computer lab, or cafe. scary huh?
1st hour : off with briana. went to the cafe for a bit then i decided to get help in math from the nollster.
2nd hour : off with briana, catie, and gibby. went to the cafe again lol. got some pop & cheeze its cuz im just that healthy, and then went to the computer lab and hacked onto myspace lyke omgzzz.
3rd hour : had a mod and chilled with briana for like, 20 minutes and i was like, "have fun being lonely" and some random chick in the room was like "SHE HAS MEEE!" and briana mouths "who the hell is that?" lmfao. yeah so bruggie was being really scary today and i was the only one that knew answers to the questions and i just read off of cliff notes lmao.
4th hour : MY FAV CLASS. vita. vita. vita. vita sinutko. bri and i's chant :D talked about conocer and saber in espanol.
5th hour : off with renee and steph. showed renee my star picture. "WOO I CAN FLY!" lmfao. thenn i went to the cafe, AGAIN, with steph, and got some fries [stephanie loves her some fries] and chips and another pop. yupp. mercy is full of healthy products.
6th hour : okay ewald is officially the craziest teacher i've had, but shes awesome. we talked about jesus, cuz you know, jesus is pretty much the coolest guy ever.
7th hour : OMG SHOOT ME. i hate bio. an hours worth of notes. i dont even know what we're learning lmao.
i'm gunna start updating like this more often again, cuz everyone loves to hear about my day :] people missed out on a previous discussion bruggie had with the class about rape and fingering. yup. foundations just isnt the same as your brit lit ;]
yeah so im gunna be home alone until 7 today :[ i hate being alone... |
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| this is what my day was consumed of. |
[Jan. 22nd, 2006|07:35 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | the academy is... | ] |
interesting...
i always had a strange feeling jason played with barbies ;]
you know what rachel, if you really didn't like my mom, you could have just told me :P
haha joe... & i can see courtney as the monster ;] |
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| stole this from caitlin. |
[Jan. 21st, 2006|01:26 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  loved | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | the academy is... | ] |
post anonymously.
1. one secret.
2. one compliment.
3. one random thing.
4. one love note.
5. lyrics to a song.
6. how old you are.
7. how long we've been friends.
8. a hint to who you are. |
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| happiness :] |
[Jan. 20th, 2006|06:37 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | the academy is... | ] |
i've been so happy. i love this. i can't ever remember when i was so happy. i think tomorrow briana rob joe and i are gunna try and hang out.
friggen sweet.
i thought i was gunna run over a kid today when i was driving home, but it was just a sign :]
cuz that makes it all the better to crash into.
but i didnt crash.
so hah.
| What Your Face Says | 
At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.
Overall, your true self is creative and expressive.
With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.
In love, you seem like a huge flirt.
In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress. |
haha that sounds like me :] |
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| in your eyes, i lost my place. |
[Jan. 17th, 2006|04:50 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | thousand foot crutch. | ] |
this is my off hour schedule. tell me if your off with me :D
1st - off day 5
2nd - off day 5
3rd - off day 3
4th - off day 3
5th - off everyday
6th - off day 2
7th - off day 2
so ms. ewald is a crazy bitch. good lord, what have i gotten myself into? lol. today was pretty fun though, aside from vita's long lecture on what hostel's were today in spanish lol.
stephanies starting to like this boy a lot more, but what else is new?
( survey. ) |
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| movie day :D |
[Jan. 16th, 2006|12:05 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | the used. | ] |
after my mom finished listening to her hella weird music, i drove to caitlins where i ran a stop sign lmfao. my mom was like "STOP SIGN STOP SIGN STOP SIGN!!" my bad. we went to see hostel. fucking weird movie. i saw more boobs than blood! lol. we came home and watched the "uncorked" addition of wedding crashers. fucking love that movie. my mom was like, pissing herself on the couch lol.
the deleted scene of todd was the best. "DEATH, YOU ARE MY BITCH LOVERRR" i recorded it on my phone :D
yup, imma dork.
but for some reason today, the day of my dads death was replaying in my head a lot, which was not good. reality is a bitch, and its definatly sinking in.
&& i still wonder if he likes me? its so confusing. probably not though. since when has a guy liked me at the same time i liked him? hmm. never! |
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| i was told i was beautiful, but what does that mean to you? |
[Jan. 14th, 2006|11:39 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | unpretty - TLC | ] |
i hate how self concious i am. i hate how low my self esteem is. i wish i could just change everything that bugged me and be fine again. i feel like the ugliest thing to roam the earth. i talked to my mom about everything and anything. i literally told her everything i hated about me and what was bugging me in life. i was thinking so much today. i cant escape the insults from anyone. no one knows how much it hurts to be called "skinny". its like being called fat. theres really no difference. it still makes you feel like shit. people who tell me they want to be tall like me...no, you dont really. i hate being tall. so much really. i can never find guys taller than me and when i do its like OMGZ YOUR A GOD.
okay i have to stop feeling sorry for myself and making the people who are reading this feel sorry for me.
so to you, reader, i apologize.
( yup. i'm a survey whore. ) |
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| hair-rr-ry? the 2nd r's silent. |
[Jan. 13th, 2006|09:51 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  ashamed | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | the used. | ] |
caitlin and i watched dumb and dumberer today. omg i missed that movie. then we went to the mall and i got a shirt and some guys in the basement were yelling BOOBA at me.
i've felt terrible all day. what did i fucking just do? that was definatly not me, i stopped that years ago. it's not the same, but it brought back so many bad memories. i definatly dont want to stray down that path again. i feel so guilty, so ashamed...why would i do that? its a part of growing up, realizing your mistakes. i just wish my anxiety would go away. i feel like i fucking have to tell my mom everything and i cant keep doing that! |
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| wtf? |
[Jan. 13th, 2006|08:30 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| | anxious | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | the bell ringing | ] |
i just got a message from someone that said using this one website is a violation of mercy policies? lmfao. it was weird. okay so i'm extremely bored. i have to wait and hour and a half until my final begins. woo. && i dont have ANYTHING do to. piece of crap. i think i'm going to the mall today with lindsay.
i hate how none of you ever comment on my entries anymore :[ it makes me oh so emo.
PS. meet me at the westland mall today and make me smile :D |
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| i'm melting in his eyes. |
[Jan. 12th, 2006|02:57 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  excited | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | the used. | ] |
after my 2nd hour finals, briana and i hitched a ride with renee to little ceasers, but it wasnt open :[ so we went to mcdonalds and got some breakfast, which was nasty, and they spilt they're pop everywhere and this lady was complaining about it lmao.
i dont have to study for finals anymore! my last one is open note. im so happy lol.
so briana thinks that *guy#1* likes me, but i dont know about that. i think hes just being nice. idk about *guy#2*. he acts like he does but then again, that doesnt mean anything.
guess we'll just have to wait it out.
but i like how they're making me feel :]
i never thought i could love again after my last heartbreak.
guess i was wrong... |
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| finals suck |
[Jan. 11th, 2006|05:43 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | confused | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | vertical horizon. | ] |
lindsay and i friggen walked up to taco bell today. saw some hot kids :] i lost my glitten on the way home :[ i was running in the parking lot like a retard, and did my infamous "mom?!" and i tripped and this hot guy was staring at me, and i was like "WOOAH" in my retard voice :D
went back to lindsays.
watched everyones favorite animated turtle.
made prank phone calls :
Me : hewo, dis is tai ching frum da national institute of chinks. may i have a foo moments of yer time?
Guy : who is this?
Me : duh, tai ching.
Guy : c'monnnn who is this?
Me : TAI CHING!
Guy : c'mooonnn!!
lmao. that was great.
mk gotta go study for gov't and bio.
yay :/
----edit----
god please dont tell me that i still like him. i cant like him. ever. hes changed too much, i hardly know him... |
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| kfhsfdsa. |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|05:09 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | nervous | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | the beach boys. | ] |
finals tomorrow-friday.
doubt i'll be on much.
so leave me comments&good luck :D
or call me!
woo!
i remember how much i missed the beach boys :] |
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| NEW PHONE!!! |
[Jan. 9th, 2006|04:25 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | barbra ann - beach boys. | ] |
my mom surprised me today by getting me a brand spankin new cell phone. its alright, im just mad that she wont let me buy a ringtone so brianas gunna help me get a free one or something.
ohh and if i didnt give you my number, lemme know and i'll send it to you.
so after school, my mom picked me up and offered to take bri home and so we decided to go to burger king cuz we were hungry, duh. while there, we saw this girl from ladywood and we were staring her down and then she was staring at us lmao. this guy had this awesome jacket with random letters all over it. it was weird...and then bri and i were laughing at this fat kid.
OMG and the ladywood girl took a burger king crown and plopped it on her head lmfao!! that was the greatest. bri was making weird noises on the way to her house lmao.
now im here.
listening to some beach boys. i know your jealous :]
GAHH FINALS START IN 1 DAY SORTA... |
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| i can't believe how stupid i was. |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|07:48 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | a little crushed | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | vertical horizon. | ] |
i dont know if my "audience" of LJ readers recall, but i liked 2 boys.
well one of them totally played me for a fool and i dont know if i should be more angry or sad. but whatever, i like the other guy more :] so see what im talking about? ALREADY i have my heart broken, a little lol.
i'm FINALLY, after TWO FUCKING YEARS, am going to redo my room. my mom is going to move the comp. downstairs so i have more room in my already big room lol. i dunno, to me, theres not a lot of space, but whatever lol.
my weekend was lame. just thought too much ALL weekend, but i hope this weekened will be different. friday is battle of the bands, saturday i might go to the mall, sunday idk, and monday is me and lindsay doosh day.
man. i forgot about how much i love this song :] |
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| i think more than i should. |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|12:45 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | good charlotte. don't be hatin' | ] |
does he know how much he makes me smile? he must, or else he wouldnt keep up with the silly wise cracks. he is brilliant. simply brilliant. but i cant like him. it wouldnt work out, so why get my hopes up?
everyone knows that one.
stephanie is just a silly girl who falls in love as easily as her heart gets broken.
its so hard to write this down, because there is no way to explain him. he has brought out a whole new side to me, that no one has ever seen. whether he knows it or not remains a mystery to me. i just hope that there may be some chance he feels the same way back.
but will i ask him?
nope. i've given up on telling guys how i feel first.
it always ends in tragedy.
all i can say is that i feel like theres some sort of spark there, but i doubt it.
since when has there ever been? |
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| i'm amused. |
[Jan. 6th, 2006|10:05 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  naughty | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | missy elliot. jealous? | ] |
| Your Stipper Song Is | 
I'm a Slave 4 U by Britney Spears
"I'm a slave for you. I cannot hold it; I cannot control it.
I'm a slave for you. I won't deny it; I'm not trying to hide it."
You may seem shy, but you can let your wild side out when you want to! |
haha. i hate that song.
hmm. makes me think... :P
tomorrow, i might go to the mall if i find someone to go with.
blehh.
boring day today. |
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| why not make this public? |
[Jan. 5th, 2006|03:31 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | lazy | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | phantom of the opera. | ] |
i might make some of my entries more public now unless theres something i just dont want people to read. idk yet.
evening of acting was so much fun! right after school, we had to set up chairs in the acting room and then do a dress rehersal for each play. i got the little headset for being on the curtains *yesss* then we ate pizza and bonded lol. and before we knew it, it was time to get ready again! everyone did so good! i was so excited and nervous, i was shaking lol. i was afraid i'd pull the curtains the wrong way or mess up my lines but i didnt :] i only took one picture because i was always doing something, but im not gunna lie. i'm definatly gunna miss my acting 2 class :*[ i think im gunna take actors workshop & this technical thing next year with ju.
how quaint.
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| funeral. |
[Nov. 9th, 2005|03:17 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | Punk Rock Princess - SoCo | ] |
my mom has the funeral plans set.
tomorrow at the Martha Mary chapel in Greenfield Village. there's a special way to get in, and once i get the map from my mom, i can send it to you, or post it on my livejournal.
the mass starts at 3:30pm but my mom would like you to get there by 3:15pm or earlier if you like? it doesnt matter to me.
PS. mercy girls. directions will be at the reception area.
any questions? ask me. |
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| homework. |
[Nov. 7th, 2005|03:27 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  okay | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | brett talking | ] |
im not gunna be in school tomorrow either, so if anyone that reads my LJ thats in my classes, please comment me and tell me if i had any homework in it.
thanks.
♥ |
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| one update after another, but this is IMPORTANT AS FUCK. |
[Nov. 6th, 2005|11:31 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | everything you could imagine | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | me and lindsay crying | ] |
everything was just fine after i updated my livejournal. then the nursing home called saying that my mom had to call them back right away, and that it was very important. i told my mom, thinking that my dad just had a fever. i come back to see my mom bawling her eyes out and i knew right away what had happened.
my dad died.
i cant even begin to believe this. its so unreal. were probably going to have a funeral for him and i will give you details for that later.
lindsays with me right now, were gunna go see him.
its just not fair. |
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| homecoming :] |
[Oct. 1st, 2005|05:06 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | Swing Swing - All American Rejects | ] |
homecoming was great. it was just too much fun.
first, i came home and got ready and restraightened my hair cuz i hate doing anything else to it lol. then zach called and said he'd be over soon and i had to finish getting stuff in my handbag. i got everything in there, but it wouldnt shut T_T. so i had to use my big ass purse lol. we took pix and drove to JOODYs and took more pix and my uncle called me "bootiful" haha. i love him. okay, so more pix were taken there, and zach & i couldnt see, so we were squinting. then we got to briana's grandma's house and waited for katie and her date, brian, to get there. meredith called and said she needed to be picked up and briana was pissed lol. we had to get rob too, along with dave. SO! katie and her brian got there, and so did emma, and we went outside towards the limo and took MORE pix. my mom took some gay ones lol. we all went inside and left to pick people up. we got stuck in a traffic jam, and we were waving at people. we saw this old lady reading a book while driving, and brian goes "SHES MY HERO" lmfao. there was a car seat in the back too, and we were were like, "no wonder why old people drive slow and lose kids" lol. i missed hanging out with katie. i dont think i have since last year lol. mk so we picked everyone up and by the time we reached the resturant, it was like, 7pm lol. so we had to eat in a half hour. i wasnt really as hungry as i thought i would be, and nothing sounded good, so i just got a baked potato and zach got taco salad, and that was HUGE and had a bunch of crap in it lol. we ate in a half hour, yay us, and then rushed to the limo to get to mercy. i saw stephanie and john so zach and i hung out with them like, all night lol. we were dancing like retards but its okay cuz were cool like that. renee, ann marie, & catie finally showed and we got dragged to the grinding pit lmao. some guy's ass was grinding on mine and i was like I NEED AN ADULT lmao. finally, we got out, and they said that bud was the homecoming king :[ i was sad. i wanted stew to win. we found dave and renee and dave was busting out his moves lol. hes just too funny. uhm..zach and i danced and then we went to 7-11 and told stephanie and renee to meet us up there. stephanie showed, but i think renee was late. so we got slushees and said goodbye.
in the car, my mom was telling me about how these girls were making fun of my uncle terry. i couldnt believe someone would do that. judy walked over to them and said "do you know that this man has a disease that will someday take his life?" and the girl was about to cry lol. if i was there, i would have went up to her and bitched her out lol. i have NEVER seen ANYONE make fun of my uncles or my dad. that was horrible. i got so pissed off hearing that.
okay well, im done. LJ is being a bitch so i have to upload my pix the gay way. [dont ask] lol.
( homecoming!!! ) |
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| spirit day. |
[Sep. 28th, 2005|05:19 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | hungry | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | Say Days Ago - The Used | ] |
yeah i havent updated in sorta a while. im gunna make this a public entry cuz of the pix, but anyway, monday i hung out with erica and zach. tuesday was when we dressed up like people from grease for school. today was spirit day. sophomores may have only one a couple games but we have WAY more spirit then the shitty freshman, gothic juniors, or burnt out seniors :P here are the pix you've been dying to see. i may take some tomorrow and for homecoming friday. PREPARE YOURSELF.
( lime green is a way sweet color. ) |
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| take this please. |
[Sep. 17th, 2005|11:43 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| | pleased | ] |
| [ | listening to |
| | What Were All About - Sum 41 | ] |
what is your name?
how did we meet?
are we close friends?
what is my best feature?
do i have a nice personality?
ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
best memory of us together?
ever seen me cry?
do i have pretty eyes?
how about a nice smile?
describe me in 3 words:
do you love me?
what makes you think about me?
do you know my fav. flower?
how about my fav. colors?
anything about me that makes me easy to find?
am i fat?
what makes me happy?
am i a strong person?
am i more of a bad girl or good girl?
do you like my laugh?
what is a strenght of mine?
a weakness?
if you could give me 1 thing what would it be?
can you make me smile?
what wuld i want the most? a hug, a flower, or a smile?
what makes me sad?
am i pretty?
am i more silly or serious?
on a scale of 1-10 how tickleish am i?
where am i ticklelish?
ever seen me angry(as in really angry)?
most embarrassing thing you've seen me do?
how cluzty am i?
do i give good hugs?
was this fun?
for the guys
do you have a crush on me?
did you just say no b/c you really do & want to hide it?
ever kiss me?
ever wanted to kiss me?
ever cuddled with me?
am i good at cuddling?
finally
were you honest on all the questions?
take that and comment the answers to me.
do this and i will give you a hug :] |
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